i'm a fan of scribbling.

sometimes
i'd like to get
drunk; to be at that
point where you're completely
wasted yet
still able to form sentences,
and maybe see if
i can write better.

_{after all,
all the good writers
are alcoholics anyway.}
and i want to be like that.
sometimes.

-

sometimes
i want to
get high just to see
if it's really
everything
everyone's
told me it was; if
you feel like
you're flying through
clouds of pleasant
glittering
nothingness.

_{i guess that's what we
called love in the
beginning.}
and i still live by
those rules.
sometimes.
-

sometimes
i like to pretend
i'm completely
out of my
mind just to
see people react
and to see
the pity i always acted like i
wanted; and maybe i'll
understand why
everyone says
they understand
what goes on
inside my head.

_{i'm not really as
drugged as you think
just medicated.}
and i still feel like
i'm in love with those
old friends.
sometimes.