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June 7, 2016

glory in red by stuff7 succinctly tells the story of surviving in a way that is personal and endearing.

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Published: May 29, 2016

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i'm drinking cough syrup
in june like it's almost
christmas

i'm speaking in only the scars
lining the inside of my mouth

i'm writing with only the scars
that i have already written

my hands are shaking and it seems
that the levies have broken

my hands no longer sewn together
my pen again filled with red ink

am i still seeking glory
is there a life here for me
i can feel a breath in my chest forming

-

i'm drinking hot chocolate
in december while it's near
freezing

i am no longer writing
on previously written letters

i am no longer writing
in red ink

i am still seeking glory
and it seems a life remains for me

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